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It’s really hard to live happily when your mind insists on reminding you of all the shitty things you’ve ever done. Guilt is a mother fucker. A MOTHER FUCKER.
I finished reading Lisey’s Story today, and I have an opinion on the book. Stephen King is probably in my top five favorite authors (by the way my “r” key is dying, so if I leave any out, you know what’s going on). His subject matter is great, but it’s his style that keeps me reading. He mixes, and very well, beautiful language and wording with grotesque, foul things.
Lisey’s Story is, highly abridged, about a woman getting over the death of her beloved husband. I’ve found most of my time to read this book while Paul is away, and considering the subject matter it’s understandable for this to resonate. The final scene of the book concludes something that can not really be concluded. Lisey speaks to the empty walls of her dead husband’s, Scott’s, study. She says goodbye and carries on with her life.
“Sometimes she’d go a whole day without thinking of him or missing him. Why not? She had quite a full life, and really, he’d often been hard to deal with and hard to live with…And then sometimes a day would come, a gray one (or a sunny one) when she missed him so fiercly she felt empty, not a woman at all anymore but just a dead tree filled with cold November blow. She felt like that now, felt like hollering his name and hollering him home, and her heart turned sick with the thought of the years ahead and she wondered what good love was if it came to even ten seconds of feeling like this.”
Treasure the time we have with loved ones now!
A survey, stolen from Thomas!
1. How old will you be in five years?
31
2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
Paul and Thomas
3. How tall are you?
5’9.5”
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
Moving!
5. What’s the last movie you saw?
Watching Cloverfield right now.
6. Who was the last person you called?
Thomas
7. Who was the last person to call you?
my Mom!
8. What was the last text message you received?
From Thomas, telling me he was heading over
9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
Some creditor
10. Do you prefer to call or text?
Text
11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Reading Lisey’s Story by Stephen King
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
Married
13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
a month ago or so
14. What color are your eyes?
Blue
15. Do you own slippers?
yep
16. What are you wearing right now?
brown shorts and “do i look like i care?” shirt
17. What is your favorite Christmas song?
Silent Night
18. Where is your favorite place to be?
With Paul, chillin’ out
19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
Out in the heat
20. Africa-NewZealand-Japan?
Africa, on safari, in the bush!
21. Where do you think you’ll be in 10 years?
Hopefully, happilly running a restaurant
22. Do you tan or burn?
burn like a Rock Lobster!
23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Something under the bed
24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
Some joke Tom or Paul cracked while watching tv
25. How many TVs do you have in your house?
Three, but only one gets used reguarly. We only watch the one in the bedroom for about fifteen minutes before bed.
26. When did you last get in a argument?
A few months ago Paul and I had an argument.
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
Half a laptop.
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
with
29. What color are your walls?
whitewashed wood paneling
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
one under my head, two crammed next to the wall
31. What is your favorite season?
Autumn, definetely
32. What do you like about fall?
The color change of the trees and the weather
33. What do you like about winter?
It’s usually not hot…
34. What do you like about the summer?
….when it turns nighttime
35. What do you like about spring?
flowers
36. How many states have you lived in?
One
37. What states have you lived in?
Alabama
38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
bare-frikkin feet
39. Are you a social person?
If I’m comfortable around the people I’m with.
40. What was the last thing you ate?
Muh-fuggin’ pizza!
41. Have you tried escargot?
No.
42. What is your favorite ice cream?
Birthday cake with sprinkles
43. What is your favorite dessert?
Chocolate mousse and strawberries is a winner
44. Have you drank a Shirley Temple
No
45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
Strawberry or blackberry
46. Do you like Chinese food?
I love it.
47. Do you like coffee?
Not on hot days.
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
One or two, not enough
49. What do you drink in the morning?
Water, if anything.
50. How often do you shower?
Daily!
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
Whichever the beast isn’t occupying
52. Do you know how to play poker?
I’ve played in tournaments, so I’ll have to say, “Yes, yes I do.”
“…one of the strongest motives that lead men to art and science is escape from everyday life with its painful crudity and hopeless dreariness, from the fetters of one’s own ever-shifting desires. A finely tempered nature longs to escape from the personal life into the world of objective perception and thought.”
Albert Einstein
My Happy Bread. I found it a few weeks ago and smiled back at it.
tiny hands, big wishes.
Anthony Bourdain is a totally awesome dude. He has the super-coolest job on the planet and I would seriously consider murdering certain people in order to get his job. You know, were the ramifications non-existent.
And he’s double cool because the Smoker zombie in Left4Dead reminds me of him. Pay attention the next time you’re lurching around!
Build your own multi-touch computer. Way too awesome!
I really want to try this. It’s an awesome thing that I had no idea you could make youself, and with a few good computer guys behind you it wouldn’t be too hard! Screens like these have barely made it into consumer markets yet!
